Our beginning was punctuated by the descending of angels.
A hedge they built around us.
A mighty bulwark protecting our love from any attacks.
It appeared we were strong enough to withstand any attack.
Understanding filled our hearts; I for you and you for me.
Our love was a deafening roar that filled every space leaving no room for doubt or insecurity.
The hope of our tomorrow was a foregone conclusion;
Tomorrow, as today, we remain in love.
Today we are at war.
The sealed guarantee of yesterday hides in plain sight.
My hearts beat pumps blood into my breast, wounded.
Where, I cry, is our shield and buckler?
Where did purity of love run to?
Your arms, my safe haven, are missing in need.
The kiss that brought such warmth is like ashes on my tongue for its fallacy.
Looking in the mirror I don’t recognize the defeated eyes meeting my own.
The lips that formed the most beautiful of smiles, frozen in frown.
Instead of a warrior, I see a coward.
Where is your arsenal?
Where is your courage?
Since when do we flee?
It was supposed to stay easy, I moan.
Tears trek slowly down my cheeks.
Staring into that defeated face, sobs shake strong shoulders.
Gripping the cold porcelain, I try to hold myself up.
Attempt to wage war against the grief and disappointment tearing me apart.
The weight presses me to my knees, unwilling.
Sitting on the cold floor, body wracked with the pain of loss,
Nose stopped up, breathing labored,
Wisdom whispers, Who promised you easy?
Pulling myself to my feet, I again face the woman in the mirror.
The eyes meeting mine are no longer defeated.
The glow of her eyes, this new woman, is a revelation of hope.
There is power and determination of love.
From somewhere deep within a smile presents, a laugh bubbles up from a well too long ignored.
With the peace came understanding.
The bulwark gave us time to grow.
The hedge around us allowed us to know each other without interference.
Truly, how great is our love without testing?
That testing time is now, and I am warrior enough to fight.
We are love enough to stand.
Shoulders that shook with pain, square for battle.
I find you, my eyes blessed to behold you.
My heart answers before I can pose the question.
Am I in love with you?
Taking your hand in mine, I smile.
Fear wants to roost at the stiffening of your fingers.
The tension invading your body.
Remembering victory does not belong to the coward, but the courageous, I speak.
My eyes locked with yours, looking for signs of the man I fell in love with.
I am so in love with you.
My voice wants to break, but I demand it to remain strong.
Coming home to you fills me with joy and security.
Your arms are a refuge, strong and true.
My heart is overwhelmed with love for you, so much so that it stutters my breathing,
Accelerates its beat in my breast.
I don’t know where or when we got sidetracked, but I’m fighting for you.
I’m fighting for us.
I didn’t notice the tension flowing out of your body.
Didn’t realize until I finished speaking that we were suddenly very close.
Our hands locked, joined in unity and love.
The tears in your eyes reflecting such love and peace.
I love you, I whisper.
I love you, you whisper.
Your arms cradle me and I’m home.
Your lips touch mine and I taste promise, hope and love.
I taste you and it is the best flavor on Earth.
Awesome...speechless. Beautiful
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